Distance

I laid awake on someone else's couch last night, systematically compiling spreadsheets in my head. Pluses and minuses floating around and eventually sorted into nice and neat looking columns and rows. Even though the pluses greatly outweighed the minuses, I just couldn't believe that math; all that addition and subtraction, but still something didn't add up. Nice is nice, so is funny and smart and all that other stuff that we put on lists and scout around for. But is it enough? And if it's not, then what exactly am I looking for? How many people do I have to burn through before the thing I'm trying to get rid of finally catches flame and disappears?

Right now, I don't have much to give.