No one has ever been in love with me and so I guess it follows that I have never had my heart broken. No one else can break what you don't give away. But, I don't know what to say to those who have given it away and have had it shred apart and given back.
I was wondering today how long it takes of someone constantly disappointing you before disappointment turns into expectation. Maybe it's a defense mechanism. If you're expecting it, it doesn't hurt so much.
I am wondering tonight how long it takes of not being loved before I begin to expect that I will never be loved. Does it hurt less if it doesn't come? Still hurts now, but maybe I am still hoping.
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I should qualify that. I seem to be very capable of attracting and keeping friendship love. This is amazing and I don't want to sound like I am discounting that or being ungrateful for it.
But it's not the stuff that people write songs or poems about.
i am beginning to believe (i have logically understood for some time but believing is another thing) that you don't break someone's heart if you love them. if you love someone, you can't break their heart.
and i don't believe anyone has ever loved me in the way you are speaking about either,
Hmm...do you think that kind of love is possible then?
Or is it just a construction? A fairy tell we tell ourselves so that we can sleep at night?
a fairy tale we tell ourselves to keep ourselves awake, i think.
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