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I have been thinking a lot in the past week or two. It feels good to be able to have my brain working and processing things again, for a while there I was scared because it seemed I either had nothing good to think about, or I had lost the ability to think the way I used to. I walked around feeling numb and fuzzy inside; my eyes were glazed over and things in my head weren't connecting like they used to. I'm still not exactly sure what the problem was (many contributing factors), but at least for now, it is gone. Now I am thinking so much that it doesn't turn off, but I don't have the patience to sit down and try to write it all out. It's coming in waves, and there is just too much to try to organize it all into nice, neat postings here.

The main point of all my thinking is this: I can remember who I was, I know who I am now, and I can again see other people clearly. The amnesia is gone. I am no longer working off breadcrumbs that I left for myself months and years ago. Suddenly things are clicking and I can give sure answers to things that I was vague and undecided on before. I need to write all these things out so that I have them once school starts and my brain turns to mush again, but I have leg lifts and stretches to do now, and it is focusing on these small, productive activities that is making the big picture so accessible.