For the record

there are reasons why we aren't working out. I also need to remind myself of those reasons: I feel I shoulder the brunt of the responsibility in the relationship. I'm the one responsible for coming up with a plan, and also the one responsible for making sure the plan works. He doesn't mind my plans, as long as they don't inconvenience him in any way, shape or form. He doesn't feel the need to come up with any sort of his own plan. He works full time, true, but he needs his free time. He doesn't mind if I don't have free time, as long as I don't ask him to sacrifice any of his. I am responsible for working full time, going to school part time, saving for the future, then going to school full time while I still pay my half of the bills, bearing children, being a mother, and being the bread-winner while he gets to stay home at least part time and be the stay-at-home dad. He doesn't mind being a stay-at-home dad, as long as I do all of the things that are necessary to get us to that point. He is content with life the way it is. I admire that. But I don't admire the inability to foresee what we want our future to be like, and being willing to help work and sacrifice to get there. If he doesn't see the future the same way I see the future, he should speak up with an alternative.

To me, just some slight changes would make our relationship rock solid and long-lasting. To him, those changes aren't slight, they're monumental. And, as he's told me a hundred times before, true love doesn't ask for change. True love accepts the other for the way they are. I suppose that's true, but I also think that true love wouldn't let one person carry the whole load. I think I still love him, but the load I've been bearing has been breaking my back. And now it breaks my (our) heart.